They say you have to have spices to life. Take yourself back to the 90s when the Spice Girls were all fired up with 'Spice Up Your Life'. So what are these spices in life and how do you define them in your own interpretation? Is it the entertaining et painful dramas, the backstabbing gossips, the colourful bunch of people around you or the conflicts and never-ending dilemmas that revolve around your life?

*feed me your thoughts*

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Two weeks since my immediate termination of employment, I was able to recapture and recollect my true self and desires. I believe that being engulfed by bad energy everyday and all the emotions or opinions kept inside you would not help in developing good creative mindset. Choked? Encaged? It's something you got to experience to know what it feels.

H : I want you to design something entertainment for this floor. The colour scheme is Four Seasons - Green is Spring, Blue is Winter, Yellow is Summer and Orange is Summer. I want you to make the space more entertainment in your interpretation.

*designed and sketched 3 ideas*

H : Er.. Don't take the design so literal. You can refer to some books and get ideas.

*continued researching, designed and sketched 7 proposals*

H : I am not crazy about the idea. It's doesn't give me the Nature feeling.

Me : What Nature feeling? I thought it's Entertainment?

H : I told you the colour scheme is Four Seasons right? Then the concept is Nature la! Four Seasons means nature ma.. Why you didn't think out of the box?

* H starts showing some ideas from books and roughly sketched a column with LEAVES on the top to hide the flood lights * <-- Taada! 'Thinking out of the box'

Now stop asking why I quit my job.

I had made several bad and unwise decisions. I called them bad, rotten experiences but these experience nurtured me with maturity and smacked me with that big fat wake up call right in the face!; I must not succumb to an easy way out.

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Malacca. Family. Home-cooked Food. What else could I ask for? The departure of several family members last month made me appreciate the companionship of loved ones. I admit that my mind is a spinning gasing! I hardly think about the positive consequences but the negatives. That's bad ain't it?

Two weeks to the big Scrabble tourney, I have been studying night and day; learning new words and their anagrams. It is not easy I must say and each time a friend ask what do I study, I would answer 'words!' How do I study words? Don't know how but I think after playing Scrabble for 5 years, my brain had been programmed to absorb words in a way beyond explanation.

*back to words*

M E B A C K

After 2 months of void, I'm b a c k!

I'll find inspiration to write when I have time to do so.

In short, I realised that I really love writing and would probably want to take up a course to further enhance this liking. I don't know, you tell me.. no?

*back to work*

checked checked checked!

This shows how I multitasked on my laptop most of my free time..

MSN .... checked!

SKYPE .... checked!

Catchup TV .... checked!

Pokemon (I know right?!) .... checked

Facebook .... checked!

Scrabble .... checked!

Call me lifeless but this is what I do.. I feel time is running too fast! TOO fast..

*bored*

kudos to the blind

pictures are courtesy of Mr Andre Teh

MINES MENSA Scrabble Challenge exhibited one of the most awesome sight of Scrabble. I must applaud their effort in bringing in the blind community into the Scrabble scene. Nevertheless, these visually-impaired people showed that their imperfection does not limit their ability to nurture their passion in Scrabble. Some of these participants flew all the way from Sabah and Sarawak just to play in this 3-game tournament because not many competitions actually pay emphasis on them.

I finished my first game quite fast. I walked to the Blind Section and was in plain awe and mesmerization! I was clearly lost in words. The way they touch and feel the board, the tiles and form words without even looking; depending solely on their sense of touch and memory to place the tiles at the correct spot without missing any Power Spots and capitalising every spot they could. My heart sank when I see them play. I have to say that all this while, I never, NEVER expected that Scrabble could be played by a blind person. I was proved wrong.

This event made me think that all these while, we've taken things for granted without us realising what lucky bitches we are. Eventhough they are impaired visually or audibly or verbally, their determination to pursue a dream or be good at something surpasses all mockery and negativity thrown at them for the past years.

I'm so gonna organize a tournament for the blind!

Encouragement is just sweet!

chuck who?

My friend, Seth said I reminded him of Chuck Bass from Gossip Girl! I was like who the hell or what the heck is chuck? He asked me to google.com Chuck Bass and bam!; photos of this chap came out. I don't know. I don't see much similarities or should I rephrase; I don't see similarities anyhow between him and I. Seriously, is there any?

*yae.. Chuck Bass.. yawn*

gone too soon

Yasmin Ahmad is undeniably the ONE and only ONE Malaysian filmmaker who excites me everytime she comes out with a new movie. It's one of those must-do things on the list. I must say that her passing was a little too soon and will stir many emotions among youngsters especially those who started watching Sepet during their teenage years. The local stereotypes she portrayed in all her movies highlights all the little minute details we often overlook in our daily lives. Typical controversial issues of race, religion, taboos, superficials and lifestyles; Yasmin never ceases to instill humour in her work.

I still remember the first time I saw Sepet, I fell in love. It was the last copy in the DVD shop that time and I hastily grabbed that very last one and proceed to the cashier. Then, Gubra came along entailed by one of my favourite, Mukhsin. Mukhsin showed a total different cast altogether and a whole different storyline compared to Sepet and Gubra. Mukhsin is one of the most sincere and pure movie about a first-love story of two young children. Yasmin also proved that one don't need popular and renowned actors or actresses to sellout a movie. It is the inlying message which makes the movie so special and memorable! Jason and Orked running in the rain towards the busstop with pink plastic bags covering their heads - you do remember that don't you? and how Orked irked when she saw a bunch of char-siew (bbq pork) in the kopitiam. And the guy with the handphone who stood still and stared at the phone each time it rang but not answering his calls until sounded?

I must say that when Muallaf was introduced by Yasmin in the newspapers, I was thrilled; but it was disappointing and nettlesome that the Censorship Board of Malaysia banned the movie in our country, what shallow stupidity! It's always the issues of religion and race that these bastards couldn't stop getting rid of magnificient homegrown talents. What's wrong with the equality of religion? No offence but I still don't understand why these so called 'intellects' have to put their religion a note higher than other religions. I mean, we all share the benefits of religious acts. I hope Muallaf DVD is still selling in Singapore. I had been looking high and low for that movie!

... *breathe* Now, the most recent show, Talentime was another case of interracialism and conservatism. I have had enjoyed all of Yasmin Ahmad's movies except for Rabun and Muallaf and I was actually waiting for a new one to hit the silverscreen but God must have loved her more. She left us with inspiration and her solid principles on Malaysian stereotypes and misbeliefs, she showed us what we often not see and neglect - love, family, ignorance, arrogance and so much more. We'll miss you dearly...

"...it is the imperfections that made them perfect." Yasmin Ahmad (1958-2009)

:(

I is sads karena my pehberlet Mamaks closed downs alreadies!!! I is emos tonight..

*I kenot terima the hakikats!!*

Weekend

It had been a loOoOooong weekend!

Savouring my few last days before my official working date starts, I'm truly stretching every moment to the maximum extend it could get. Friday was potluck BBQ at Leonard's and my first time attending CG where I joined the rest watching a movie called 'End of Spears'; a based-on-true-story movie about an aboriginal tribe in Ecuador called the Waodanis and the real story behind changing the aboriginal community lifestyle with help from the white people. Slept early on Friday midnight but Saturday was mean!

Joan came over to accompany me as both of us weren't doing anything. We went to church together and that was when we decided to tag along Joweng and Derek's plan to hit on the club that night! Had dinner with some church friends and headed back home to get all primp and 'improperly' for the night scene. Club was crazily loaded with a huge crowd. Squeezing through the throng was insane and I was really surprised with multitude of fanatics on the dancefloor. Drenched in buckets of perspiration, we left all wet and wore.

Slept at 4.30 a.m. Arise at 8.15 a.m.

It's Family Day! It was so early in the morning blest with the coldest morning dew ever, I didn't want to be awake but...!! Got to church, did all the oh-god-I'm-such-a-good-sales-person duties and got back at 4pm after a brief tea-time. Thinking that the night might be stale, me and Joan planned a movie together. And the 4 of us; again, watched Obsessed. I think it was a great show! Perfect acting by Ali Larter and the best script for Beyonce. Despite the flaws in the end, the movie was thrilling and got me up the seats! :P

Had a good walk back home. A great weekend accomplished!

*yay!*

sharing's caring?

from my 'lapsap' kitchen...

Stir-fried Black Pepper Beef and Broccoli w Spaghetti

stuff you need..
Spaghetti (desirable portion)
any type of pasta (penne, linguine,fusili) would be great substitutes

Generous amount of beef cuts
Marinade:
3 tbsp abalone sauce
1 tbsp coarse black pepper
1 tbsp cooking oil
1 tbsp yellow mustard

1 cup broccoli (blanched)
1 cup oyster mushroom
1 plum-size onion (sliced)
butterhead leaves (sliced)

1. Pour in 2 tbsp of cooking oil into hot wok. Brown sliced onions before adding in marinaded beef. Continue frying until beef cuts are half-cooked. Add in more black pepper if you prefer the dish to be zesty.
2. Add in oyster mushroom and 2 tbsp of water. Slowdown the fire and cook until mushrooms soften. Oyster mushrooms will emit juice which will be the base of the sauce
3. Add in 1tbsp of abalone sauce if the sauce is not tasty enough. Fold in spaghetti, broccoli and sliced butterhead.
4. Stir ingredients for roughly 10-15 seconds and it is ready to be served.

*good luck!*

I love J s

It is really nice to have friends around. You know, leisure drinks, hanging out, chit chatting.. but something is bother me. My inability to converse very well with people I enjoy being with. It is not that I did not try hard enough. I just don't know why I will be struggling to find a topic or subject matter to discuss about. I tried... to impress... I guess I failed?

Anyways, it is the 8th day of the month. Was supposed to start work but working days are voided due to an inevitable circumstance. I'm basically bored to death now! The cyber-pages are getting limited. My regular visits to facebook.com and yahoo.com are of menacing amount of 'refresh' clicks in hope for the latest updates or a new email. That's basically how screwed my life is right now!

A random thought; the people I love most now have initials starting with J s! :P

*Unscrew screwd!*

cheers!!

There you go, my weekend spent watching some school kids flipping, performing stunts and bending their limbs as if there ligaments are made of rubber. I got up early today feeling exuberant. There and then, I decided to go to Cheer 2009 in Stadium Putra Bukit Jalil. Yes, this is my first cheer event, how inapt! Adrian was already there early supporting his sister's team, the Blitzers who triumphantly emerged as champion this year with a 39 points difference from the 1st runner-up team, Shirtlift who was defending champion. Man, they were good! As soon as I spotted Ashley (Adrian's sister), my eyes are all on her. Flexible and talented young lady, good dancer just like her brother. How envious I was! I couldn't even reach my toes standing up!

I was there to see Jun's performance too! He will be representing Malaysia for an international championship in Australia next week. It's part of his team's preparation to perform as a boost of confidence but one can never run away from mishaps! It was great pity when one of their flyers injured herself badly while doing a stunt. I've heard of her, seen her even especially in TV ads and commercials. Remember the girl in the Yakult ad? The girl who was at the forefront, taking off the helmet and drank Yakult towards the end? And the girl from the Silky Girl advertisement? Anyway, she did a stunt, landed on her head and as she was trying to support herself up with her arms, one of the arm twisted and she shreiked in pain. She was carried to the side, out of the performance ring while being attended by several officials. Jun then told me that she dislocated her arm and could not perform for the Australia stint! The team needs to look for substitute in a week and yada yada... I hope everything will be alright~

Now, that's real bad luck.

*hungers*

me books?

It was a little dubious for me to be a fan of books since I publicly declared my contempt for books because they put me to sleep easily; you know, it's like when you open the book and there, pixie dusts puff onto your face and poof! the next thing I know, I'm already slumbering. It's sad but I am trying real hard. I managed to finish Mark Leyner & Billy Goldberg's 'Why Do Men Have Nipples?' last year. It was not so bad a book actually. Currently still stuck with their second book, 'Why Do Men Fall Asleep After Sex?' Okay, what is the book all about? It explains to you biological stuff in the mythical, logical, beliefs and taboos contexts. Questions such as, 'Why do women pee more than men?' , 'Why do I sneeze when I pluck my eyebrows?' , and laughable issues like 'Can you breastfeed with fake boobs?'. However, I think it might appear a lil' too scientific for chic-flic lovers.

Anyways, I had lunch with a friend outside Atria and dropped by at the Levis' and Dockers' warehouse sales in Atria. Albeit good offers were given, nothing there were to die for. We proceeded to a floor lower to the book fair! I was a bit sceptical about books. But! yes BUT! I spent more than an hour there (surprisingly) looking for books that attracts me. Besides, they were very very cheap! To be honest, I was searching for Scrabble dictionaries at first but there were none. Then I continue searching, this time for design books but most of them were too historical; Rembrant, van Gogh, Vermeer, Bernini and the rest of the gang. Art history and me parted since the end of Critical Studies 1 during Year 1. So, the next best thing is to look for nice frontcovers or book titles. (I know I'm such a holy terror!) ....s...e...a...r...c....h.... Tadaa! I ended up with Richard Montanari's the Skin Gods. I think I'll start to pick up reading all over again. Friends of mine are all surprised because I'm a Scrabble player but I don't like reading. Ironical?

We spent 52.oorm for 6 books. Now that's a good bargain isn't it?

*back to work*

Chick'n with the Chicks

The sudden craving started due to a light dinner I had quite early tonight. It's sinful I know, but I had 2 pieces of KFC Fried Chicken and it's Fiery Crunch! Sophie had 2 pieces too while ShuYin had 1. It's so sedap I swear! :P

I'm contented and tired and very sleepy. Jo's back! Joan's going HK today~ Jun's busy. Sigh... Jamie's in Thailand! but Jo's back! yay!

*I'm too sleepy I think!*

after so long....

*this picture landed me the job! must give credit*

It's been a while since I've written something about yours truly albeit trying to let this blog die off due to the hot soup stir few months back.

A friend told me that if you pour hot Chinese tea into those cute little cups you find in kopitiam/dimsum shops, and you see that the tea leaves floats in the tea, it brings good luck to the drinker. I wonder if it's true. However, I would say I have been enjoying every part of my daily routinal life since moving out from Desa Pesona. Several people I would miss but memories, bitter or sweet will remain perpetually.

And I had decided to continue writing again. I'll start work soon, very soon! I wonder if I would have the time to sit and write but I don't mind weekly updates. Guessed Facebook took over the need to blog as all the updates of all your friends are available daily, better still, hourly! Still figuring the speciality of Twitter but Facebook still stands #1 in my list!

I've been enjoying all my time with friends - gatherings, sharing sessions, sports, food hunting and indulging, clubs, Scrabble rendezvous, etc. Guessed now it's time to move on to a new phase in life. Wish me all the best? YES?

*crossed fingers*

I wonder...

I was just wondering why I don't get PASSERSBY last time but recently? The suddenness of immense people coming into my blog is crazy! Should I seek help from nuffnang.com? I should blog more often.. a lot of random readers lecturing me about law! wow..

It's nature for TRUE friends to stand up for TRUE friends. Some bitches still don't know the real meaning of the term bitch! If these so-called-bitches keep on reacting like this, they'll be bitches for good! So what if my bestie is the Queen of all Bitches? I still love her!

Go on... KMA!!!

p/s : The pot IS calling the kettle black!

eerie storie..

I finally went to Cell Group after so long!! Hm.. This time it was social night with the rest at Cornelia's place. I prepared my signature egg and peanut butter sandwich spread and bought two types of cold meat, romaine and a loaf of whole meal with mustard sauce! haha.. It was a sumptuous Easter party cum dinner thingy. LOL...

After meals, we had some Taboo games and had lotsa fun.. But the climax of CG today was sharing ghost stories and experiences among the rest. Cornelia's story was the most moving one, sharing how she went through so much in Australia when she was all alone with no one to help her dealing with those spirits. To think about it, mine is just a minor thing. I hope I don't bump into one anytime soon. Regardless, had a good laugh sharing the most embarassing moments and the most stupid moments, etc..

Contemplating to whether sleepover at Mel's place or not.. So tempting..

p/s : Fried Assam Laksa for lunch tomorrow, no?

Oh Happy Day...

Sister Act brought us closer to the true essence of Gospel and Soul. It made me smile listening to Oh Happy Day. So I went Google.com and searched for some smiley faces and I found cute ones like these! The 3rd one was tagged "the fucking smiling face!" LOLz.. wonder what it means! It just reminds me of the Easter Eggs they painted. Esp Adelyn's constipated egg. LOL..

Last night's turmoil was a true stand up action and I'm glad I'm part of it. It's great humor don't you think so? I laughed throughout the whole debating session. Puny constructed, flimsy snakey, gay together! WTF! hmm.. I can tell you they're hella bunch of crafty people. :) Nevertheless.. it's part and parcel of life when arguments happened and people misunderstand your action as something otherwise. Point is, you chose the wrong person to mess up with. I'm no meek person, that I know!

p/s : outing.. yay! adios amigos! Oh Happy Day....

I see......

I am the blacksheep now. Since the scapegoat was warned not to be the noble messenger, I've not been told things I don't know. And the peculiar awkwardness at home has unfold itself. In my point of view, it's good to let others know what the real issues are. There's no point hiding it from the other parties as what I am saying is the truth. Call me irresponsible, call me rude, call me naive, call me intolerable. Spilled beans, who bothers picking them up? If you have things to clarify with me, come forward and look into my eyes and blurt out your disputes. Don't show me faces and pretend nothing happened.

Wow, it seems like my blog is the only way for me to communicate to some people I see everyday. Hm.. how humourous can that be? Probably, I'm just being cynical~

I try to let go of some issues I kept for quite some time. And when I do, it's really when I cannot stand anymore and it's normally eruptive and explosively a big bad bang! Now, the question is; should I apologise? *shaking my head*

The feeling of being left out in every thing is something nightmarish you can never imagine. Bickering and whispering without you being able to participate worries me sometimes. I think I need to be adapted to these sort of situations as I'll be living alone soon. Wondering if it's a good or bad thing. *I wonder*

These days I could see shadows in the house. I don't know if my spirit and faith is at the lowest level or it's just my imagination. But I know it's starting to be more frequent. I don't like it. I pray everything would be okay again. I'm having insomnia again this time. And I'm still procrastinating my work. I hate myself for this! Urgh!

p/s : Where are my friends when I need them the most? Did I waste my 20 years of life making friends who only find you when they need you?

Peculiar...

It's so WEIRD!

Weird Indeed!

p/s : Egg Hunt was good! :)

what coincidence....

I had a good sleep last night. Went to my cousin's newly renovated apartment. Had a nice chat, nice new mattress! It dissolves all conniption I was dealing with earlier. My working drawing isn't that bad after all. I'm satisfied! That should now stop me from working even more. But probably one day rest? or two, no?

I was browsing through some facebook application when I bumped into this! what coincidence.. the selection of friends by the facebook website application was as if it was pre-planned. All are I-won't-trade-them-for-all-treasure-of-the-earth friends! :) Glad I noticed it, it shows I have extra time to look into details~ LOL

Now when I'm feeling much better, my tummy aches! hmm.. Stooppid! Just when I thought my throat is fine enough to wack Spicy food, this tummy buat hal pulak!

The house atmosphere's not right. I think someone in the house might have read my blog. Cani's has been asking my blog address out of a sudden. I sensed something fishy. Argh! who bothers? Do I look like I care? , no?

p/s : meeting Joan and Sharon, the two cha bohs for lunch at PicaD! chao!

stop being a bitch!

This week had been pretty rough for me. I need anger management classes for goodness sake. It seems like the world is so against me that everything that I do and decided on turned their backs on me! I apologize if I lashed out at you at times when I'm really at the verge of explosion because I really didn't mean to. My emotions got me going the wrong way. I shall explain....

#1 Persons
I hate how people can be so annoying and not understanding in terms of privacy, sharing and togetherness. In a household, things that are meant for sharing should be used and utilised equally. Who cares if you bloody need to use it? Wait for your turn! Don't show me bitch faces and all those fucking facial expressions just because you need to use it urgently! I bloody waited almost everyday and when I got to use it at last, I got the blame for interrupting your perfect plans~ Do I look like I care? You just justify my decision to move out of this place!

I hate being in large groups of massive numbers. Food are meant to be enjoyed and eaten with joy and contention. When the group seems to be like a pasar malam; yes, you're so getting on my nerves! What's the point joining tables after tables when we still communicate, talk, eat and settle the bills differently? And for goodness sake, grow up and know what you're ordering and be alert! Don't let the poor waiter stand there like a fool repeating your bloody order again and again and you not responding to the waiters' call. I just sometimes don't get it. I might be the youngest there but I really hate noises and immense density of crowds. It really turns me off and agitates my boiling point!

I have a room but I don't have a room. I don't know. These days seemed to me as if I am renting the living room and the toilet. I get annoyed when I have to change in the toilet when I need to go out. My jeans get wet!!! I am annoyed when I couldn't undress myself in my own rented room because there's a girl there. Well, sometimes I just don't care. I hate it when I need to scavenge for clothes like a blind man in the dark because the other party is sleeping. And mind you, my room is very very dark at all times! Somehow, I just justified my point getting a new place! I hope I can just pack and leave now! Sick and tired of this household! It's killing me!

I got up today morning with a huge bang of sounds. Thinking it was already noon, I got up to realise it's just 11am. I went to brush my teeth and check on the washing machine to find out there's someone else using it. Been a week since I wanted to wash my clothes and it's always being used and my clothes are piling up like a mountain! Last night after mass and dinner, I came back with the washing machine in used till 2.30am! and all the water left to drink was at at least 80C!! Some bitch just being so inconsiderate, filling all her 2L bottles full and leave it on the kitchen tabletop beside the boiling kettle. Such a bitch, she leave only hot hot water in the jars. Being thirsty, I can't help it but to drink hot water. How great~ *I j-u-s-t-b-u-r-n-e-d-m-y-s-e-l-f! bitch!*

#2 CAD
I am really sick and tired of my work. As far as I know I can complete them, they are being so annoying; hindering me from doing things I wanted to do. I just can't wait to get over all these nonsense. I can sigh all I want but things have to be completed on time! And all is left is a little more perseverence, a little more hardwork and that little bit of push in the ass to stay focused!

#3 Facial Hair!
It's growing rapid rapid rapid-LY again!!! arghh!! I need to shave everyday again! Aku benci! Why must the threading shop closed down!? stooopid!!!

# Myself
When I get angry, it shows very obviously and people know! And I tend to hurt people. Esp with my big fat mouth! That is why lesson learnt, and I tend to be quiet when I am pissed off! When I do so, people kept asking me what's wrong and it annoys me even more! Can't you bloody see my bloody face how fucking pissed I am with you!? Now don't get me started!

I know this post is pretty much throwing tantrum, but at least I am throwing it on my keyboard and not you! I am taught to be much more reserved in terms of my temper. Been there done that, I'd flipped over tables, throw chairs, bang the door, break things, slap some bitches faces, punch someone in the face~ God knows what I might do next. So fuck off!

*I'm only refering this post to certain people who have twitched my anger button on. Be gone! You're all in my I-hate-you-even-more-now list! God bless have a nice day!*

i h-e-a-r-t the new look!

After several weeks of construction works, and us being in the "Crypt" (basement) for mass, we finally moved back into the church. It looks magnificent! I love it!!!

I'm still procrastinating my work very much that it's not even 5% complete. I'm so dead! I am bored and sick of this project! It feels like aeons!!!!!!

p/s : Can I go out please....

30.03.2009

My day yesterday started off after a satisfying 12-hour sleep. After tutorials, I and the 3 smurfs went to Old Town Kopitiam in BU8 for some toasts. Sent Linda home, went to pick up Joan and headed to Yvonne's place to view a room as I was suddenly told that I might need to move out by this weekend! Omgosh.. hushHUSH!

After viewing the room (it's seriously too small for me), we went to Melinda's place for makan! She cooked to feed the army, believe me! But it was indulgence! The food is fantastic~ And to top the icing on the cake, she baked me soft cookies as a birthday "cake". Actually, there's not enough ingredients to bake a cake.. thus the cookie story~ I'm really happy!! Good food, good companion, good hawt! topics, great friends~ What else could I ask for?

I'll let the pictures do the talking..

The oversize cookie for me! yumm...

My Birthday Cookie!

The sauces - pickles, mustard, bbq..

Stir-fry sausages with ham and portobello mushrooms

Baked chicken wings! Aku suka!!!

Baked potatoes wtih oregano! Heaven~

Mini pizzas..

My Godsis and I

Joan and Milky~ muaahahhaa! :X

Henry joined us after we finished the dinner and they opened another bottle of wine. I shall leave those naughty stuffs we talked about when they got tipsy! hm.. :D It was a great dinner and more shall come! :) Thanks Mel! I lophe you!!!!! Thanks Joan and Henry!! I lophe you too!!! :)

p/s : I'm a happy kid! I declare 31.03.09 a do-no-work DAY!

toils and snares

WARNING! DO NOT ENLARGE THE PICTURES you wont like it

Taa Daa!! Here's the final result of the model I struggled with for two sleepless nights. Been procrastinating a lot and very lazy; thus the need to work my ass off non stop and messed up the entire living hall arose and it drew unnecessary attention which uneased me! Nevermind.. I'm proud of my work although it is not quite done yet. But, who cares! At least mine's satisfactorily okay.

This week had been rock 'n' roll for me! There were times when I'm happy. vice versa. I hate talks. Especially unnecessary, boring, annoying, repetitive, winding, 'cheong hei', experience based, mumbling, lame, cold jokes, irrelevant TALKS! It's such a waste of time and it's just meaningless. end I just got back from a movie - Taken. It's actually not bad! Next would be Talentime, Shopaholic ya'll! and... let's see... Wolverine anyone?

It's 4.30 a.m but I am not feeling sleepy. Maybe it is due to my sleeping pattern which changes my lifestyle and not helping my health at all. I don't feel as healthy and fit like last time. Probably I'm just getting older~ ahh~ sigh

I'm so excited! I got my birthday bonus!! Y-A-Y. I can't wait for tomorrow! I need to buy banana tomorrow!

p/s : Someone wake me up early before the market closes!

fuh.. what a weekend

Before I start putting my thoughts down, allow me to sigh deeply~ *SIGH*

It has been a really 'colourful' weekend void of assignments. I swear I'll feel the regret not touching any of my assignments this weekend. And interim crit is just in 5 days time. I'm so screwed! I really don't know what I am doing right now. What comes in my mind is fantasizing, friends, food, more food and fun. It's bad how the F word could be so poisonous. I made new friends this weekend. Really nice ones. :) I'm happy about that.

Many thoughts came in. I see different sides of human being I never expect to see. I'm beginning to see drastic changes in some people which appears disturbing to me. I am trying to blend all these emotions together and I suddenly felt awkward. There's just something funny bothering me right now. Probably due to my sleeping pattern which have not been very consistent this weekend. 5am on both days!;got up after 12pm. Well, and sometimes talks goes on and on and on, you didn't realise your time is being stolen little by little.

I should sometimes realise that I am just a student. I have limitations in many things! Why wouldn't I learn my lesson. I had my haircut today and I love it! Lawrrence had his and he look so much younger and now tagged : pretty boy! muahaha...

Now back to assignments mode, I hope I will resist temptations and all lures. I think I can manage. Toodles!

p/s : Can someone just tell someone to cut thou hair? I tak boleh tahan!

Hell ya I'm typing again!

83 words

Typing Test

I gaze I look,
The web is tempting,
I tried and tried,
but its not progressing,
I pray, I gave myself a knock in the head,
Suck it up honey, or you'll be dead!

*I need ubat pengingat!!!! ouch*

Marching to March

It's March! I'm so excited!

*Sin~gapore~*

Shoe size 9 - current fave pattern stripes - current fave colour fuchsia pink whites apple green - love cereal - wearable - durable - fashionable - touch screen! - chest 41" - waist 31" - head 25"

That's enough hints I supposed. Hope it help! Be wise~ muahahahaha!

p/s : I still need to sort out my shopping list! yes in Singapore :P

i've been typing.. a lot!

82 words

Typing Test

p/s : someone please smack me awake! I need to do work! seriously!

raindrops and thunderstorms

Take one step at a time... That's the way it should be!

Today (Sunday) witnessed the change in Henry's appearance with his new haircut! Man! The hairstylist did a great job changing his hairstyle whilst taking away a few years from his appearance besides adding a zest of freshness and youthfulness to his face!

"...OMG! I like it!! I like it!!.... "

Guessed Henry is a happy kid today! :)

As for me, I'm feeling very cold right now. Feeling that a fever is coming to hit my by storm! Trying to get inspiration to give my interior space an artistic touch but my mind's not working right now. A few sketches would be appropriate but I am never satisfied with what I have. I don't think it's working nicely. Shit! I'm clutching things up again! Urgh! Thank GOD I went back to Malacca. The stay brought me back to who I am - cranky, funny, being stoopid! As soon as I came back to PJ, I felt a vibe of positivity and joyfulness! I felt so much better... I miss Mummy and Daddy! I h-e-a-r-t YOU!!

Joan got her new car already! I'm still waiting for a joyride! :P

Jo Weng is leaving on Tuesday. Gonna miss that dude so so much!

June's operation was successful! Praise the LORD!

Singapore. I'm darn excited! Hmm.. I can't wait to go there this weekend. It's like an escapade to new ideas and inspiration. Bottomline, I need a break desperately!

I wanna go out! but it's raining...

p/s : I'm tired too...

when I am bored...

Seriously, some of you might think that I have no life. I truly admits that my life is quite pathetic, sharing a room with a couple; having no sense of who I am as a person; always heading home after class; social life lingers around the same few people; etc etc...

Dalfred, a model friend of mine who stands at 181cm tall said that he consider himself short among his friends. OMGOSH! Are his friends trees? I'm barely 170cm and and he is saying that he is short at 181cm? I'm a bloody midget then! I drew him that ultraman on MSN. How cute?! :D

Yes, it's very lame, I know. That's what happened when I am very very bored, sitting on the couch whole day glaring at the laptop screen while trying to figure out what to do with my sketchbook.

I'll go cranky soon! Trust me.. I am already~

*I'm still ignoring.. I don't know why~

that is it!

FINE! So everyone is trying to go against me right now is it?!

This is so gonna be war!

You are so messing with the wrong person!

*I see fire in my eyes!*

tweezzerr...

10 Reasons Why You Should Date an Architect

1. All night long, all night strong.

2. We are damn good with our hands.

3. If we can commit to chipboard, relationships should be easy.

4. You should see the things we erect.

5. Use to doing things over and over again.

6. Finishing early never happens.

7. We know the true meaning of interpretation.

8. Creative positioning.

9. Work well in groups.

10. Entry and passage are always exciting.

*it's so bloody true....*

p/s : I'm still emo-ing...

it begins now

My E-M-O-ness starts NOW!

p/s : I hate what is going on with me..

it sucks big time!

What happened when you suddenly felt you're in a situation which is very much against you?

What would you do?

I felt hatred and disgust gushed into my soul today. I felt the world is so against me, everything done was wrong. I hate myself!

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I have no other wish but to get a place of my own. I wanted the sense of being all by myself all alone. I could go to bed anytime and anyhow I want without needing to care for another person. I can sleep naked without hesitation. But all these are wild thoughts which will not happen in this time frame. The type of people I want to stay with is so much in contrast with the people I lived in now. Being outgoing, fun even though there's an exam coming along, naughty, less naive, WILD! Sometimes I wish they would grow up. It's not that I'm saying I'm bloody mature compared to them but it's the level of sensitivity in the house that is not appropriate at this age.

I felt there's no fun in life if my pathway did not collide with Joan, Janice, Jacqueline, Henry and Sharon. And Melinda too; being a rare case that our pathways crossed the very moment I came out of my mother's womb. These are the several few people I really clicked with and would like to still hangout with them in decades to come. All I can think of is that my life would be shared with all of them.

I'm writing this post because I have nothing better to do and because I am really tired of the norms of life. Being a student is so much fun and relaxing, one would say but for me, I am not savouring every moment of it. It suck big time! Life sucks big time too! So what's the big deal now? Piece of crap~

p/s : the mosquitos are annoying!! I killed 5 already writing through the blog!! *smack* Oh, another's dead!

It's just Valentines'

Being single is my forte I would say as I don't see the need to be in a serious relationship at this point of time. I have many similar questions being thrown at me asking me why am I not in a relationship right now. My answer would be I'm not ready! I'm not stable financially, even my career is not affirmed, I'm still struggling to support myself and it is not easy to support another person. It is said that a relationship is a sharing of happiness and burdens, the ups and downs, etc but that would be all the love promises and diabetic oaths during the first few months of the relationship. After that, it's not the same anymore!

For everything there is a season under heaven Ecclesiastes 3:1

Adrian gave me a piece of leaflet yesterday which talks about the 8 Simple Rules of Dating the damn-Catholic way! I would say the whole thing encourages Catholic men to be boring lovers, unexciting male companion and the worst kissers. That is what I personally felt after reading it. All dating must end up with the Holy Matrimony. One of the rules stated, #2 DON'T DATE FOR EXPERIENCE - If you don't date for bloody experience, how would you know what kind or type of guy or girl you'll like? and what kind of lover you are? For me, dating is a part of exploration and finding who you really are; what kinda person you are inside out and what kinda person you're really looking for. Not all men or women are lucky enough to find the right one and hit bulls eye with ONE attempt. That's bloody heroic but life ain't a fairytale.

Don't go after your lusts but keep them in check Sirach 18:30

After reading the whole leaflet, GirlS! Catholic men are really holy people! Don't expect surprises and sparks in relationship coz we can't kiss, we can't go near you to avoid temptation, we cannot cohabit because it might lead to sex, we are inexperience coz we cannot date for experience and you bloody need to wait for 2 years at least before you can marry them! LOL.. Sorry I have say this because I don't agree on the gist of the leaflet pretty much~ End of story...

p/s : Anyone interested to get a copy of these 8 Simple Rules, please contact me directly for a free copy! :)

A lil of everything

Beautiful view from the peak of Heeren Street - the towers from the Chee Family's Mansion

I had fun reminiscing the good old days when I helped my late grandma make kuih kapit..

And you have to believe me that assignments is NOT fun at all! The sectional model is up for evaluation and it is another chapter of a new stage now. It's prototype week! How 'fun'! I'm missing a lot of other fun when doing this. I wanna go Kelantan and Terengganu and the submission have to clash with the vacation dates! URGH!!! Aku benci!!!

I miss making kuih kapit/kuih belanda(Peranakan name)/love letters.... suddenly, all the cooking tips from my grandmother gushed out of that little space I kept muted since 10 years ago. I suddenly missed her. With more memories spat out, I'm missing home, missing Babi Masak Assam, missing Chap Chai, missing sambal belacan mum's style, missing so many things about home! I miss the nangka tree that bears the best nangka fruit!! I miss the smell of morning breeze back home. I miss my family most importantly.

I think I'm having that one day when emotions took over the conscience. I need rest

p/s : I hate deadlines! I so hate deadlines! I'm sacrificing an Awana Kijal stay for free coz of deadlines!!! FUCK!

good ol' malacca

Despite hating the traffic and weather in Malacca, I must admit, there's no place like home.

That weekend brought together five people closer and stronger in chemistry. It was a humble breakaway from KL city when Henry and Jac decides to visit Malacca. Missing the Ayer Keroh exit was an irony with 3 out of 4 passengers in the car hails from Malacca - at least for goodness sake stayed in Malacca before or part of their family rooted in Malacca. Henry finally understood the grievances of my complaints about Malacca traffic when we arrive in Malacca town. Picked up Jasmine and we were just in time for lunch at my place. Mom was more than happy to welcome all of them with a sumptous lunch. Mom really cooked a lot. Everyone was indulging into true Peranakan dishes which you couldn't find anywhere else unless you know someone with the Peranakan blood. When everyone is already bloated, it is Coconut drinking session. Mom plucked the best ripe coconuts while dad chopped them open for a soothing dessert in a hot environment. Despire being in the kampung, I would say, even the trees and greeneries around my house are not helping in cooling down the temperature of the space.

Lunch over and we headed back to Jasmine's place to put our stuff in the guest room before venturing into her ancestral authentic Peranakan house. It was jaw-cracking! amazing amazing architecture from the past and I was truly blown away. The amount of precious things in the place is indescribable - all thanks to her ancestors for being such smart asses when most of the Malaccans are trying to kais pagi makan pagi, kais petang makan petang during postwar period.

Mesmerization moment's over and we headed down to Jonker Street for the famous dessert - Cendol. Had a blast! Everyone's bloated again~ After we had our cendol, we went for Satay Celup and several other places before southing to Pantai Kundur.

Went to church the next morning before heading back to Jasmine's place for oh-my-god-the-best!!!-ever Mee Siam I've tasted. It was so yummy, Joan finished the whole bowl of gravy left for the Mee Siam - minus the noodles! Sheish! After that, we headed back to my place to get my stuff before going back to Kuala Lumpur. On the way, we stopped by a shop in Tengkera for Tai Bak, ABC and Kueh Badak. It was just a simple soothing dessert perfect for such a hot weather.

Reached Kuala Lumpur with smooth traffic surprisingly on the Sunday before the end of school holidays. Went Pavilion for a simple movie - All's Well Ends Well. It was stupidity to the max! No gist but some parts were undeniably funny. After movies, we headed to SS2 for a quick bite before heading home with overloaded stomach and happy memories!

I lophe you guys! All of you!! I had a great time! LOPHE!!! :)

p/s : Assignment's next.. chao!

ASTAR Scrabble Challenge International

It was indeed a gruelling 7-game tournament, being one of the hardest and experiencing the most nerve-wrecking moments. With so much of prize money at stake, it was indeed nail-biting to watch the outcome of every games. This time around, top Thai Juniors Chaiwat and Thacha payed ASCI 09 a visit coming full throttle to win the top prize. Singapore's WYSC 2007 Champion - Toh Wei Bin made a partnership with SPEC's Ian Tay while Malaysia's hope lies on top seeds; WYSC 2008 first and second runners-up, Khoo Beng Way and Ramaraj. The other tough-dough was Karl Chin and Brian Lim from SPEC, Johor. I partnered Leroy Ong (Melaka Boleh!) in hope of that RM7000. *I came in second last year with Aaron Chong*

The hall was just freakin' cold as the temperature of the centralized air-conditioned space was not controlable. Everyone was embracing themselves through the game. I was dramatically chattering! Some of the upsets include a 2-0 victory over Ramaraj and Beng Way. It came from inter-school long-lost veterans - Benjamin Ong and Sui-Jon. Beng Way also lost to Mohd Khairi, CNY Tourney 09 Intermediate runner-up. However, despite the unexpected losses, KBW and Ramaraj managed to pip Wei Bin and Ian Tay for 3rd place with an extra pinch of spread. Wei Bin and Ian was the overnight leaders until they lost 2-0 to the Thais to drop to 4th place. My team came in second behind the Thais. Well, here's my review on my games.

#Game 1
Opponent : Syahilla
I won't say much because she is still a newbie and I am pleased I played a clean game! I made a nice found in the first move hooking the R to form AIRDROME. Played 3 more bingos - FLIRTIER, DRAGONET and SORBENT.
Score : 567 - 230

#Game 2
Opponent : Ruzaini
This game I played 2 non-words but was not challenged. I got confused with ROADIST* and ROADIES. Played ROADIST* through the 4-timer. Played WEEDIEST and FATIGUE to seal the game with a huge +414 spread. He said he was too cold to think. I am too~
Score : 602 - 188

#Game 3
Opponent : Toh Wei Bin
This is where the real challenge begins. After getting enough cushion to retaliate any possible damage, I played TWB. I was struggling with bad tiles, drawing 4Is and unfriendly combinations. Was trailing all the way with him played LEAFIER and URETERS. Almost to the end, my rack was BELNPT?. Hooking the OI, I managed to find POINTABLE and BLUEPOINT but I wasn't sure of BLUEPOINT. Hastily, I played POINTABLE and it was challenged. +5! :) This game is totally his since the beginning.
Score : 353 - 450

#Game 4
Opponent : Khoo Beng Way
This is another tough cookie! Having lost to him on several occasions, I have no confident whatsoever to win. I played my normal game trying to score maximum on every move. He leapt away with COTTAGE and BAPTISE. I played a 3-timer RECLINES and played big scored with Z, X and J. A phoney by KBW cost him the game when he played HUCKED*. At that time, I was struggling with 4 annoying I s. I tried balancing my rack and scoring maximum to not fall behind. I drew the final blank and played a bingo DRIFTED to win the game by mere 8 points.
Score : 404 - 396

#Game 5
Opponent : Mohd Khairi
He scared me a little scoring huge scores in the first 5 moves before he started fishing for a bingo - TRITONE. I played DISSEND* but was not challenged. He then played a phoney LEASURER* which was challenge off. I smacked him with SINTERY(86) and COZ(56) to seal the game.
Score : 484 - 335

#Game 6
Opponent : Toh Wei Bin
First game of the repeats, we met Wei Bin again. I prayed hard that Leroy would beat Ian Tay again after a superb showing in Game 3. Again! I got really bad tiles with only one small scoring bingo STOOLIES (58). He played PURCHASE (110), SUNDIAL (85) and DOWELING (82) and won the game by a huge margin. I was worried and devastated! But Leroy managed to beat Ian again! yay!
Score : 338 - 552

#Game 7
Opponent : Karl Chin
It's the last game. It's do or DIE! At this point, there's no clear winner. Anyone had the change to have a podium finish. Karl started off with PLANETS (74) and he said sorry. I was having AEEGIU? in my rack to hastilily play EUGLENIA*(82) to reach the 4-timer. I was pretty sure but the real word is EUGENIA! Urgh.. the word was challenged off! Having the same spot blocked for EULOGIAE, I played EUGARIES (62) to open up a chance for a niner. My next move was GROOMING (82) but he smacked me back with SMELLIER (68). He then made a huge mistake by opening the board for me to fit my VAUNTIER (82) perfectly. He retaliated with TACONITE (75). At this time, the scores were even. I had a series of maximum scores AUK (35), SIX (47), DRY (43), JERID (39), ZEA (32), FEW (27) and DIVS (56). He has relatively lower scores and I won by a +71 margin. Leroy was slaugthered by Brian Lim quite badly in the last game. I was very pleased with my game.
Score : 505 - 434

Click here my gambar glamour~

Overall, me and Leroy lost 2 games each for a combined 10 points to clinch 2nd spot. Thanks Leroy for a wonderful feat! Since this is my last year in a varsity, it was good money! I should be doing my model but it's still on 2D form right now. Oh gosh, I so need a spanking right now!

*exhausted*
p/s : will update the Malacca trip in the next post.

2009 for the wrabbits...

Career: Since no strong Lucky Star, you will get less supporting in your job position. You will encounter the trouble and spend more time to finish tasks. Therefore you don't credits in the job performance. Your hardwork will be credited and praised but not rewarded. *bloody hell!* But you still need to work hard, stay focus, pay attention on your words or behavior. Otherwise, your mistake might cause to be scolding or punishing, even get a lawsuit. Therefore, you need to keep your profile low and avoid argument with others in the company. Then you will be safe in your career future.

Money: Because of the troubles and obstacles in career, you don't expect you will have good achievement in money area. You should be happy, if you can reach the same financial goal as in 2008. Because there is no Lucky Money Star coming to you, you must not do the risky investment or gambling *I heard that!*. Don't be greedy in the short term return, you will lose all and regret in the end.

Love: If you are married, you might have some quarrel with your spouse about your children or family expense. If you are in love, you will spend less time with your lover. Unless you and your lover have been together for many years, your relationship might be turn cold after some disagreement. If you are single, you have the chance to meet the new friend, but the relationship won't last too long.

Health: Many Unlucky Stars are unfavorable to your health and your family members. You should pay more attention not only on your health, but also on the the seniors in your family. You need to prevent yourself from not only getting sick, but also get injury at work and at home.

Fortune: The luck of Rabbit people in the year of Cow is not that good. So you don't expect you will have good job performance or good financial return. But you shouldn't give up, you need to persist your determination, learn the experience and knowledge from the trouble. When your good luck comes, then all career investment will return and the wealth will increase after. Poor health could cause your mental and physical problems. You can spend more time with your family to relax yourself and take care the health of family members. Make sure no one get hurt by any accident in the year 2009.

*Seems like it's not going to be a great year after all..* Bloody Holy COW!