why am i still here?

Life could be so zig-zaggy sometimes, you wouldn't like it!

Fresh from the cinema hall where I was almost dozed off watching Madagascar 2 ... Africa... (geez,I don't even remember the complete title of the movie), so anywayz, I was yawning dramatically in the car all the way back home. Completing house chores and some little grooming was the last thing to do before heading off to bed. Tonight I felt a little different. Before the movie started, I was talking to Kathryn about relationships. (oh! she's just my housemate) It seems she had a whole different perception of what love is all about and that past experiences made her forget what love is and for her confused what love really meant to her. In my life right now, at this phase, I don't see a relationship as a good thing but rather a commitment. Thus, friendship is the only option I opt for each time I meet someone new.

Let's just put it this way. I met this girl couple of months ago in a party. She is fine, pretty shy in the beginning and she's just a friend's friend. This is when facebook comes in real handy. I got tagged in an album with pictures of the party and she instantly messaged me. To my surprise, I was like "..err... isn't this girl the girl I met in Jo's party?" Since then, things blossomed quite nicely and rather sweet I would say. Until one day, when gestures and gimmicks were interpreted wrongly that it turned out to be what might be a serious relationship. I was instantly drawn back because it was a huge commitment I wasn't ready to commit. I ain't gonna hurt a girl's heart if I weren't thinking thoroughly. With that, I gave the opportunity a go. It went away and never return.

Few days back, I received another facebook message from a girl I barely know. ( I don't even know why she's in my friends' list) In the second message, she gave me her phone number. Yes! Desperate I don't know but it certainly freaked me out a LOT! and it is actually quite a turn down. In fact it is a huge no-no for me. Not trying to generalise but why are these girls so daring and outspoken that their instant introduction would be, "You can call or sms me at 01x-xxxxxxx". I'm so not buying it.

People do ask me why, why don't I get a girlfriend. My housemates are pouring that sort of questions and it is now a chant! Blame me for being the only guy (just the two of us actually) left unattached after my roommate got hitched by my housemate. I seriously told them it is just a burden and commitment I am not ready to handle. I let opportunities go just like that without thinking if there's more to come or probably that last one I let go would be the last for me. Can that possibly happen? Am I doing the right thing? For now, I'll leave it at the hands of God.

"Our lives are like crossroads. He chose our paths and if our paths crossed, that is fate - God's will and God's wondrous work."

*I'll just head to bed right now. My mind's relieved.*

How Great Thou Art

This is so random~

I met an accident yesterday and my car french-kissed a Mercedez Benz!!!! It happened in a flash.. like out of a sudden there's this car jutting out of no where.. it's a one way street and it's my road.. and it happen right in front of my office.. Thank God by colleagues were there and my boss in an instant drove back and try to settle the hoohaa for me.. The guy was okay.. coz it's hard to tell who's fault was it... BUMMER! I'm going to spend all my salary on that car repair~ ergh! hate it when things like that happen... it always happen when I already plan on what to do with the extra cash! now everything have to cancel! Why must it happen on me? Why must it be yesterday! haihz...

I so so tak suka la... Anyway.. I'm perfectly fine.. just the car's skirting koyak and the right signal light came off... dent a lil'.. so.. I'm gonna change the skirting.. fix the light back in.. give it a good knock! and have it sprayed and it'll look good again~ I hope my dad won't notice.. I didn't wanna tell him coz of some issues.. blog readers.. shhh!!!!!!!!

*feels so unlucky and moody*

I am wide awake

I can't sleep... for some bloody reason, I can't sleep...

Back from my Hatyai trip.. I'm really exhausted and all drained out due to the stupid 14-hour-bus-trip back from Hatyai to Malacca.. Then another 2 hours of driving all by myself from Malacca to PJ.. Anyway, I'm back to White Board Studio.. And yay! so many things piled up just for me~ But boss was great.. let us off early.. Gonna be so busy doing finishin touches for this house.. then prepare the Hitachi setup thingy.. then gonna attend this event representing the company.. aiyo.. so banyak things to do.. but that's it for this week.. Can't believe it's already approachin August! That means one more month to go to finish off Mr. Leong's work! oh no!!! I'm so so so not prepared! haha.. haven't touch a thing yet! Anyone to second this statement?

Oh!! My roomie's attached to my housie! aiyo.. Got a shock! Coz wasn't expecting it at this time.. and I was the last one to know! felt so stupid! heish! Feel bit weird but.. right... I'll get used to the lovey doveys.. hahaha..

Gotta force myself to sleep now! It's freakin 2 am! and I need to work tomorrow!!! argh.. Nightz~

*I'm still shocked!*