run.... run....

I am really feeling exhausted at this point of time and I really wanted to let it ALL out! I thought I could go jogging in Taman Jaya but it's quite late right now due to long hours of tutorials. I wonder if I've committed myself to too many commitments? Caroling? Church? Scrabble? But my focus has to be on my studies! Why am I doing this? urgh! I'm feeling so not good right now. Stress led me to more food and I'm getting fatter!

Sometimes I wonder why carolling practice consumed so much time? I personally felt that there's an air of over-ambitiousness in the room and with the amount of time left, we wouldn't be able to finish practising all the song and to polish the quality before the performance. I don't want to have another torment during the performance. Everyone have to commit in one way or another but if the commitment is too heavy, I'm afraid I can't cope. I wanted to pull out from this project so badly but I can't deny the fact that music and singing praises to God releases stress and help me feel a lot better and calmer. Besides, I felt the connection with the Church each time I'm around a group of really nice people altogether singing praises to God. *skip skip skip*

I ydread to go to college tomorrow! Why? We're busy people. I'll make sure Wednesday is a free day to do assignments. I don't even have the time to read books for my dissertation. I kept renewing the books for 2 months already. It's seriously annoying! I don't know why time passes so fast! I don't know if I can take it any longer. People said I can cope and overcome. I don't have the hope to overcome this at this point of time! I need more food~ I so need more food~

Okay, I'm not trying to be sceptical or whatsoever, like when things have not been done, you can't tell what will happen or you won't know if it'll be a success but at this point of time, I just really want to let go many things! I want to LET GO~

*heads to kitchen to prepare some pasta dish*

tears of joy?

Today's celebrations were in two contrasting colours.

I started my day today in church singing for Max and Andrea's holy matrimony. It was beautiful witnessing the couple blessed by God's presence and being called up by God to be together in the name of the Father, Son and Holy Spirit. And to be part of the joyful celebration was just priceless. After the wedding mass, we were treated with a meaty galore buffet! Platter of ham, roasted pork, roast chicken, fish, prawns, yong tau foo; anything to make me salivate and overeat! I had my meal to the fullest and had a great time dancing and singing with the crowd. As we were eating, we're serenaded by a 60-something man who sang beautiful numbers mesmerizingly! It brought back memoirs as the songs he sang were songs of the 60s, 70s and the 80s. It was almost 4 when I went back with Amelia and Adeline to get myself changed and have a good rest before mass starts.

Mass was fine today minus the fact that I was late. I drove halfway to church to remember that I forgot to pick Christine and Jonathan up from their place. Urgh! Eventually, I had to make a U-turn back and was late. Regardless, it was so warm and nice giving and receiving hugs from church members as a sign of peace.

During dinner, we got a message from Cannis saying his mom passed on in the afternoon. The whole feeling turned sombre and it was pretty sad to hear that. So we decided to cut short the caroling practice and attend the wake @ the funeral parlour. We sang a song and recited the rosary. However, the dead's husband was joyfully jugging into his cans of beer. Regardless, it was obvious that the sadness in the eyes will betray a person's smile.

Condolences to the Rozario family~

Today I learnt one thing. Marriage is a start of a total new life which will end in death. As the saying goes '...till death do us part...', I believe that the death of a spouse is the beginning of another 'new life'. It's definitely not an easy task... wonder will mine be... ?

*tiba tiba emo duno for what!*

14-hour-bus-trip

Last two months, I went to St Anne's feast in Penang with my family. It was indeed mesmerizing to see the architecture of the church being executed almost picture perfect! I love how the morning sunrise beams beam into the church through its glass roof. Beautiful~

After the super early morning mass which I slept in almost the whole mass due to two big reasons - first being the 9 hours bus ride from Malacca which left me sleepless and the oh-so-dead-boring choir who lullabied me to slumberland~, we headed to Hadyai. The stay in Hadyai was quite nice. Oh gosh, I shopped a lot! Eat a lot too! Blame myself for sitting in a table with a bunch of 'old-people' with controlled diet~ *devil grin with that Ziana Zain smirk*

Overall, I did enjoyed myself for the 3 days I spent with my family without thinking about my work. The night I returned from Hadyai to Malacca, I rushed back to KL that very night at 11pm as I need to work the next day. It was indeed hectic. However, I sucked it up and live with it. I'm happy~ :)

Tomorrow will be the first day of our Final Year. It's going to be bummer-liciously tough I tell ya! I hope I'll weasled my way through a good grade and start working! I just can't wait to end my study life. It's so restrained in many aspects. Can't wait to see my classmates after 3 months not seeing them! and oh! I can't wait to see ZiZi's hairstyle.. :) it's so 'un-curls' now.. :) and Claire said Raymond cut short hair adi~ muahahaha.. need to catch that! *I won't miss your 'hat' Claire~ :P*

*better get some good night sleep*

i need my guardian angel lord

ARIES - The Aggressive

Outgoing. Lovable. Spontaneous. Not one to mess with. Funny. Excellent kisser EXTREMELY adorable. Loves relationships, and family is very important to an aries. Aries are known for being generous and giving. Addictive. Loud. Always has the need to be 'Right'. Aries will argue to prove their point for hours and hours. Aries are some of the most wonderful people in the world.

How true can horoscopes be sometimes... but I am so into the line I highlighted green~ LOL.. it's so true.. being KIASU! LOL.. and the line I highlighted red.. it's even more true! haaha

I'm torn between two huge things now.. and I really need to sit down and think over them.. It's eating me up! I don't like it.. I need support from friends or whoever it is but it's hard to meet up with friends nowadays due to workloads and laziness.. hmm.. All I could do is pray to the Lord and ask for his mercy and love.. Praise the Lord for giving me life till this day..

I've been having gastric each time after meal.. It's so fucking annoying! Coz I can't fill up my tummy and I get hungry very easily! erghh!! To add salt to sore wound, my wisdom tooth is growing and it's giving me hard time to chew! Erghh!! and the best thing out of all, to top the icing on the 'cake' was the stupid ulcers popping out on my tongue!! ERGHh!!! So SO unlucky!

*going to work*

I don't like goodbyes

how bad news can be....~

I spent RM300 repairing and servicing my car today.. huhu! @.@ Change the brake pads, smoothen the brake discs.. fa lala... the more I ask.. the more problem I have with the car.. and too bad I didn't inherit my dad's bargaining skills! haha.. I think no one's better than him~

Worked till 9pm something today.. reached home about 10pm..

Am kinda sad.. two of my housemates moving out.. And they are some of the closest housemate around.. The ones whom I share my problem with sometimes.. The ones who I enjoy cooking for.. hmm.. sob sob.. Need new housemates now.. hmm... Anyone need a room?

I miss someone....

*continue reading Why Do Men Have Nipples?*

If tablets are like cereals...

It's the time of the year for me to have some extra spice in life.. High fever I'm talking about.. had it on Thursday.. Aunty GimSai nursed me well, I got fine and was on the roll whole Friday buying stuffs and doing decorations for the GYM Feast.. Even was fine for 'Wanted' in Pavilion~ haha..

Came Saturday morning, I was shivering the whole night.. and the temperature's rising up badly! I was energy-drained.. totally bad condition.. was so worried coz I'll have to be healthy and fit to start work on Tuesday and furthermore, I have an event on Saturday night to manage - GYM Feast.. Went to see doctor.. got medication and I swear! the tablets are HUGE! gosh.. I need to swallow like 7 big tablets in one go! I feel like puking swallowing them coz one of them has this pungent smell I hatE! yuck!

GYM Feast just over.. Thank god it's over.. the whole thing was okay.. not that great~ hmm.. people just came for food! ergh! anyways.. at least they made new friends.. I do~ huhu! hmm.. Gonna rest early and hope everything will be fine! I need to be well! Got choir practice tomorrow, Monday's my only time to buy things and go out, Tuesday gonna start work! have to remember to search for WhiteBoard Studio a day before going to work! haha.. gonna be a rough day!

*still having fever and gastric*