The morning sun tells a story,
rays of light so bright,
trying to make its way through the semi opaque curtains,
not a jolt nor a ring of sensation
could tell my soul, "it's a brand new day"
The morning sun tells another story,
it's time to start anew
trying to burn my spirit to jump off slumber
deep within my weak body
my soul wondered, "what happened yesterday?"
The morning sun tells yet another story,
it's time to remain in slumber
pondering what God's game plan
with a little jounce of vim
I covered my cold self, "it's time for rest"
*..headache..fever..sketches..dissertation..food..blogging..model..tired..sleepy..*
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24.11.08
run.... run....
I am really feeling exhausted at this point of time and I really wanted to let it ALL out! I thought I could go jogging in Taman Jaya but it's quite late right now due to long hours of tutorials. I wonder if I've committed myself to too many commitments? Caroling? Church? Scrabble? But my focus has to be on my studies! Why am I doing this? urgh! I'm feeling so not good right now. Stress led me to more food and I'm getting fatter!
Sometimes I wonder why carolling practice consumed so much time? I personally felt that there's an air of over-ambitiousness in the room and with the amount of time left, we wouldn't be able to finish practising all the song and to polish the quality before the performance. I don't want to have another torment during the performance. Everyone have to commit in one way or another but if the commitment is too heavy, I'm afraid I can't cope. I wanted to pull out from this project so badly but I can't deny the fact that music and singing praises to God releases stress and help me feel a lot better and calmer. Besides, I felt the connection with the Church each time I'm around a group of really nice people altogether singing praises to God. *skip skip skip*
I ydread to go to college tomorrow! Why? We're busy people. I'll make sure Wednesday is a free day to do assignments. I don't even have the time to read books for my dissertation. I kept renewing the books for 2 months already. It's seriously annoying! I don't know why time passes so fast! I don't know if I can take it any longer. People said I can cope and overcome. I don't have the hope to overcome this at this point of time! I need more food~ I so need more food~
Okay, I'm not trying to be sceptical or whatsoever, like when things have not been done, you can't tell what will happen or you won't know if it'll be a success but at this point of time, I just really want to let go many things! I want to LET GO~
*heads to kitchen to prepare some pasta dish*
just let go
....Munching a wheat bun with coarse peanut butter filling is heavenly when your stomach is grouching for food...
Catherine came to SFX to get Daryl boy's toy he left while he visited me here almost a year ago. Dealing with health products, Catherine was kind enough to let me try a special tea which boosts immune and metabolism. She knew I kept falling ill and complaining about headaches and stuff. I was indeed grateful! The thing which attracts me was the ingredients of the tea, namely green tea, lemon and hibiscus. I took a sip and it tasted quite weird at first but after a while, it's actually quite refreshing! This drink miraculously kept me awake without a yawn until now! (1.00am) and I felt hungry; yes I mean real hungry! :P
I felt so stressed up due to several problems which occurs concurrently and I'm beginning to freak out and started to break down. However, I felt blest God send me Patrik who made me feel so much better with his noble help! I felt really good after he obliged to help me out. I'm done doing precedence studies. I have all the information needed and I just need to translate everything on the final presentation sheet! I hope that I could finish half by tomorrow which would be brilliant! At least I let go of my burdens and felt so much better and could concentrate.
I thought yesterday's dance and singing session would help me release some stress but it was just short-lived. I'll pray harder! I am really tired of going to college everyday. It's such a waste of time especially during waitings! urgh! Okay, shall not whine anymore. Don't wanna be tagged the whiniest! Shall head to bed and work my ass of for 3 days! Good luck guys!
*it's 31st tomorrow! But no ice cream for me~ :(*
rum and raisins... strawberry cheesecake
I'm quite sick of listening to wrong interpretation of words in lectures. It's pretty annoying. At least get the facts right and not do us more confusion! (explains why many didn't pay attention in class..)
Okay! That is not the point. Does rum and raisins or strawberry cheesecake ring a bell? YES! It's the time again - 31st of the month. Baskin Robbin is having their oh-so-popular promotion again. I'm planning to quench my cravings and treat myself for being a good boy this week. I should right?
I miss my churchmates! I can't wait to see them again. Probably have to wait till Saturday. I'm currently trying to finish up the plan of the building in order to start doing the framing model. It's going to be another oh-so-many-assignments week again till the Interim Crit on Monday. Firstly, I need to get well from my illness - being lazy! I've been procrastinating for many many days already. I did my assignments partially at all times keeping them on hold whenever I don't feel like doing them. *smack myself twice* It's time to get up!!
I'm trying to fit my time properly and plan ahead though I am not a person who plans my stuff. I rejected 2 freelance jobs, one got postponed, one is on hold, three is coming up next month! I really hope I can cope with all these. What should I do? Hm.. Probably, will start thinking about it after my housemate's birthday celebration tonight at TreeHouse, Uptown. I just wanna shake it off tonight! My shoulder is getting heavier by the days and I really need to let go!
*It's time to get back to work again (dreadfully)*
Food cravings
My housemates went for JOGOYA!! and I can't join them as I have band practice for mass this weekend! I'm officially oh-so-busy~ With two huge submissions not far from sight, there are so many things to consider and decide. Honestly, it is giving me headaches every night and morning. Thus, to calm myself down, I made myself a hearty dinner to treat myself for being such a good boy last weekend! I made black pepper chicken stew with potatoes sided with garden salad. *yum yum* Oh! I had ham sandwich with scramble eggs for lunch though...
That sinful bites wasn't the end of my meal of the day. After band practice, the band members decided to go for mamak. Hell yea it's a cool mamak! They only serve rice dishes! URGH! So, cravings over discipline, I ordered Nasi Goreng Pattani. Urgh! That guilt of eating is so into me right now. Gotta take less calories tomorrow. *so bimbo right? he he he*
And these pictures just remind me of more cravings I am having right now.. hot chocolate.. Swensen's burger... Control! *mind's gonna blow*
I miss the hot choc in O' Briens...
And the chicken burger..^#%&*$^*need to have more self-control!*
tears of joy?
Today's celebrations were in two contrasting colours.
I started my day today in church singing for Max and Andrea's holy matrimony. It was beautiful witnessing the couple blessed by God's presence and being called up by God to be together in the name of the Father, Son and Holy Spirit. And to be part of the joyful celebration was just priceless. After the wedding mass, we were treated with a meaty galore buffet! Platter of ham, roasted pork, roast chicken, fish, prawns, yong tau foo; anything to make me salivate and overeat! I had my meal to the fullest and had a great time dancing and singing with the crowd. As we were eating, we're serenaded by a 60-something man who sang beautiful numbers mesmerizingly! It brought back memoirs as the songs he sang were songs of the 60s, 70s and the 80s. It was almost 4 when I went back with Amelia and Adeline to get myself changed and have a good rest before mass starts.
Mass was fine today minus the fact that I was late. I drove halfway to church to remember that I forgot to pick Christine and Jonathan up from their place. Urgh! Eventually, I had to make a U-turn back and was late. Regardless, it was so warm and nice giving and receiving hugs from church members as a sign of peace.
During dinner, we got a message from Cannis saying his mom passed on in the afternoon. The whole feeling turned sombre and it was pretty sad to hear that. So we decided to cut short the caroling practice and attend the wake @ the funeral parlour. We sang a song and recited the rosary. However, the dead's husband was joyfully jugging into his cans of beer. Regardless, it was obvious that the sadness in the eyes will betray a person's smile.
Condolences to the Rozario family~
Today I learnt one thing. Marriage is a start of a total new life which will end in death. As the saying goes '...till death do us part...', I believe that the death of a spouse is the beginning of another 'new life'. It's definitely not an easy task... wonder will mine be... ?
*tiba tiba emo duno for what!*
i need my guardian angel lord
Outgoing. Lovable. Spontaneous. Not one to mess with. Funny. Excellent kisser EXTREMELY adorable. Loves relationships, and family is very important to an aries. Aries are known for being generous and giving. Addictive. Loud. Always has the need to be 'Right'. Aries will argue to prove their point for hours and hours. Aries are some of the most wonderful people in the world.
How true can horoscopes be sometimes... but I am so into the line I highlighted green~ LOL.. it's so true.. being KIASU! LOL.. and the line I highlighted red.. it's even more true! haaha
I'm torn between two huge things now.. and I really need to sit down and think over them.. It's eating me up! I don't like it.. I need support from friends or whoever it is but it's hard to meet up with friends nowadays due to workloads and laziness.. hmm.. All I could do is pray to the Lord and ask for his mercy and love.. Praise the Lord for giving me life till this day..
I've been having gastric each time after meal.. It's so fucking annoying! Coz I can't fill up my tummy and I get hungry very easily! erghh!! To add salt to sore wound, my wisdom tooth is growing and it's giving me hard time to chew! Erghh!! and the best thing out of all, to top the icing on the 'cake' was the stupid ulcers popping out on my tongue!! ERGHh!!! So SO unlucky!
*going to work*
proudly presents...
Set up in JW Marriot Hotel
Ta daa! The first stand completed
The minirack in Cheras Furniture City.. exact prototype in MV and OU too..Okay.. Today was awesome! Me and my boss went to 4 different places to settle the HITACHI stuff.. The wordings you see on the mini white rack? It's sticker.. and we have to stick on every stand sent... namely One Utama, Mid Valley and Cheras Furniture City.. so was driving round town today.. After that, we went to Pavilion to do site survey in Harvey Norman and Bonia.. It was so cool.. we went to various Interior Design shops and furniture shops and my boss kept feeding my with design tips and information.. I learnt a lot today! Met Keith today and man! he's a darn good sales person! and the products in the shop he's working in is impressive! At least my boss was attracted~ haha..
Been a long day.. out since 2pm till 8pm.. gotta get a good rest today!
*i haven't fix my car! BUMMER!*
How Great Thou Art
I met an accident yesterday and my car french-kissed a Mercedez Benz!!!! It happened in a flash.. like out of a sudden there's this car jutting out of no where.. it's a one way street and it's my road.. and it happen right in front of my office.. Thank God by colleagues were there and my boss in an instant drove back and try to settle the hoohaa for me.. The guy was okay.. coz it's hard to tell who's fault was it... BUMMER! I'm going to spend all my salary on that car repair~ ergh! hate it when things like that happen... it always happen when I already plan on what to do with the extra cash! now everything have to cancel! Why must it happen on me? Why must it be yesterday! haihz...
I so so tak suka la... Anyway.. I'm perfectly fine.. just the car's skirting koyak and the right signal light came off... dent a lil'.. so.. I'm gonna change the skirting.. fix the light back in.. give it a good knock! and have it sprayed and it'll look good again~ I hope my dad won't notice.. I didn't wanna tell him coz of some issues.. blog readers.. shhh!!!!!!!!
*feels so unlucky and moody*
taking chances
I'm on MC today.. been having high fever last night.. Felt bad leaving my half-done work behind.. and it's due tomorrow! shiet..
I need some advice...
Let's say.. If you're offered to work in Dubai.. what will you feel? Excited? Accept the offer immediately? or.. Spend weeks thinking about it?
There's a few things to consider.. First is the weather.. it's about 50C there.. that's very hot! And the food.. what about language? the people there? culture? do they have a church there? hmm.. But the good thing is you're able to learn new things, get exposure from a different retrospective.. I get to learn new culture.. explore new type of food! since I'm a food lover.. But can I take the heat?! hmm.. I scared first week there I'll get high fever or vomit blood coz too heaty~ muahahaha...
Well, it is indeed an irresistable offer.. I need advice from you readers.. hmm..
*dizziness never stop buggin' me doing things I want!*
i'm so tired...
I wanted to complain so badly about how harsh today was.. but deep inside.. there's a really terrific feeling resounding....
Let's see.. We went site measurement for almost 3 hours.. a freaking huge big ass house~ 3 storey and dang! the beams and double volumes are so killing me! My back and neck aches kept looking and measuring vertical lengths.. And the best part is I'm so vertically challenge, I need the extra foot of the measuring tape to reach a certain angle! argh! and the measure tape! my God! I think it's barren.. it might be GAY! It's so lembik... Cant stay straight nicely.. hmm~ Mr Measuring Tape's Mandul!!
Went lunch after all the measuring and figures! I hate numbers! but not green notes! :P Had lunch in Central Cafe nearby the office.. I think it's quite a nice place.. but the food is a turn down.. Prob we ordered the wrong thing.. Anyways.. resumed work about 4 something in the office.. And 5 minutes doing the detail drawings.. my eyes started tearing.. I swear I HATE AutoCAD and I don't like doing working drawing.. I can stay all day doing 3dMAX or and 3d drawings but please not AutoCAD! erghh..
Boss came back and told me to do immediate amendments on the Hitachi Display Stand.. *YAY* So so happy! I can stay away from AutoCAD.. Did changes and redesigning 5 different stands for the Hitachi's new product - Ultra Thin LCD.. World's slimmest TV.. haha.. 3.5cm (1.5in) very slim but darn heavy.. it's 20kg with stand.. hmm.. I enjoyed designing all these in 3dMAX.. I finished the first 4 designs.. My boss came telling me.. "You should be proud.. This design of yours will be mass produced and distributed all over Malaysia.. The first one will be launched in JW Marriot next Thursday.. They are producing 50 of these.." cheh.. I'm damn bangga... Left office at 12.00 am
*so sleepy and oh-so-abso-goddamn-lutely bangga*
I don't like goodbyes
how bad news can be....~
I spent RM300 repairing and servicing my car today.. huhu! @.@ Change the brake pads, smoothen the brake discs.. fa lala... the more I ask.. the more problem I have with the car.. and too bad I didn't inherit my dad's bargaining skills! haha.. I think no one's better than him~
Worked till 9pm something today.. reached home about 10pm..
Am kinda sad.. two of my housemates moving out.. And they are some of the closest housemate around.. The ones whom I share my problem with sometimes.. The ones who I enjoy cooking for.. hmm.. sob sob.. Need new housemates now.. hmm... Anyone need a room?
I miss someone....
*continue reading Why Do Men Have Nipples?*
Let Me Console Myself Ok?
I came back from Penang on Sunday night.. It was a really great journey.. we stopped by Taiping.. ventured into the old town.. Taiping is really a great place! nice food.. recreational area there is huge! it's like the heart of the town that keeps the city alive.. Hmm.. air there is so much fresher and less humid.. love it!
Penang was pleasant too.. Stayed in Aunt Paulette's place and I felt so blessed! Good food, good stay, good hospitality.. Aunty Paulette's a great host! Shalyn's a great driver too! ha ha.. The tourney I went to this year was fine.. just fine~ Main reason is coz I didn't win anything! not even the lucky draw! so unlucky~ Shalyn got a pendrive.. Aunty Yeap got herself a MP3 player.. Vannitha won herself a MP3 player too and it's green! eerghh! (jealous).. The tourney were tough for me though.. here's how it went..
First day was horrendous.. I lost 3 games in a row.. I lost composure meeting Alastair Richards and Seshi Ramanathan (both much higher rated than I am).. Lost to Sue-Jane.. mistake and unlucky tiles! last game before Day 1 ended gave me a lil' hope.. I thrashed Chow Xin Wei by more than 200 points spread to cover up for the 3 game damage..!
Day 1 ended - I was bottom 5!
Second day was better.. Like any other tourney.. I always do better on the second day.. I won 7 out of 11 games.. I lost to current World Champ - Nigel Richards by 102 spread, US No. 1 player - Jason Katz Brown (he's only 21) by 82 spread, Singapore Grand Master - Tony Sim by 108 spread and Malaysian No.10 - Ramaraj by 41 spread. Not that bad aye.. Considering how bad I am! However.. looking on the brighter side.. I beat Bob Jackman - 2 times Australia National Champion and WSC representative for the Aussie team, John Lam - Malaysia representative to WSC Kuala Lumpur in 2003, Micheal Tang - Singapore big gun, and several others.. not too bad la.. :)
Day 2 ended - I was 13th I think...
Third day was a lil's depressing.. I don't know why I kept meeting strong players.. I met Jocelyn and lost, then Alastair and I lost! both are higher rated than I am.. indeed they are better than me! hmm.. Then I met Shalyn.. that game was actually hers.. I was trailing all the way and manage to trick her to win by a mere 13 spread! I set a trap up... with LIRI which doesn't takes an 'S'.. knowing that she had 2 'S' and hoping that she'll put the 'S' behind LIRI to play the DoubleWord (DW).. My heart was gleeing when she played SWANS hooking to LIRIS.. kept quiet and when she pressed the clock! BAM! I challenged it off! and finished with DRENT (she challenged the word) it's either do or die! but yay.. I won that game and met Uncle Jin Chor pulak! so frus! kept meeting tough players.. but I was really lucky in that game with Uncle JinChor.. Managed to play several bingoes.. and won comfortably (458 - 314). Last game I played another strong U-18 player - Beng Way.. Okay.. I admit I am a sore loser.. I was so angry when he made a bingo and kept scoring so much.. he played UNROBED(76) , HAPAX(67) , and BOTTE(35) and already ahead of me by 80 points.. I just couldn't catch up after the 3rd play.. and lost it totally.. Although I have both the blanks.. Whatever la..
Day 3 saw me missing top 20 just by that bit! I was placed 21st out of 50 players.. how sad! heish! but I must admit it was a tough field.. and my ratings went up! yay!
Okay.. his might be a boring post for non-scrabblers.. here's some nice words I played and I saw during the tourney.. WOBEGONE, ECURIE, HAPAX, TANRECS, ZORILLE, COHOG. TYIYN. TWADDLES, PINYIN, VIRULENT, SKIWEAR, FREITIER, WHOOPSIE, MANTOES, ZEBRASS and VAGRANTS.. gonna study the words now.. planning to complete 6000prob before MENSA tourney.. :)
*anyone wanna play scrabble?*
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